Quiet

depression
long looks into the dark
closed up
encased in what dreams never came
and the life you never could make
and the despair
so much for you to carry on the heels of your feet
on your knees
crawling through the sludge of defeat
a loss you will never get over
alone in the dark
of your mind locked up tight
no one in or out or close by
deserted and left
alone
cold sting of injustice
or unfair treatment
whatever
it doesnt matter
not anymore
with the doors closed and your eyes shut
it all hurts the same
but does it hurt
or feel good
no longer do i know
no longer do i feel that rush from my spine
feelings burned off by that foreboding sense of loss
or confusion
whatever
it doesnt even matter
just four walls
and cold
and dark
is it even cold
you no longer know anymore
it doesnt matter anymore as you lie there on your back
heart and head towards the world that has forsaken you
on the life that never came
on those dreams you wished upon a star
that you'd wished it had became
no longer life was it to you
no longer true
no longer real
just time that you wanted to pass by
just quiet that became to loud for you to stand
and that ringing in your ears from your eyes that started when you saw that it wasnt the same
so you shut them out forever
your whole body a fortress entombed
and no longer would anyone get closer
but
whatever
it doesn't even matter anymore
that time has gone
you failed
the time
is gone
and it no longer matters anymore