Seasons of Love

it was when spring time came
i first noticed your breeze
and sat by my windows and noticed your color
how you gave a fresh breath of life to the leaves
how you so easily swayed my intentions,
so easily holding my attention
with your sweet offerings of flowers in bloom
and when summer came
i then noticed how our emotions increased
how you released your passion with the heat
and bathed my body with your sun drenched lust
and this lasted for awhile
taking shade from your power when i couldn't take anymore
but then fall came and you became cold and distant
let our leaves of hope fall to the ground
and i felt alone with the bare branches
you became dark, letting the clouds roll by
i finally took the hint and went inside when winter came
i felt when you hurled the harsh winds across the walls
and heard your howls of woe seeping through the cracks of my door
but one day i felt your calm
and i tried to embrace your new weather
so i stood at my door and looked out the window
and for a moment i thought i could see our new year coming
and i thought we could make it
until i came back and seen you'd left frost on the glass
and my vision was gone
it was then that i realized that our season had came and passed

Love Em

If Diddy can't do anything else, he damn sure can put out good r&b groups...even if he doesn't promote them well.

Life Changing Moments

You never really know how good forgiveness really is until you experience it first hand. I never thought that a weight so heavy could be lifted by the understanding and assurance of another. I love my family, I love my friends, and I love the life that God has granted me. To be forgiven for even the dumbest of mistakes is so profound beyond words. I would like to think now I will go about things in a much lighter way because I know not everyone is as blessed as this particular person. I just wanted to take time out to say that this person has my highest respect and gratitude because they were able to take their anger and hurt out of the picture and forgive me. They were able to look past my transgressions and see the person that I really am inside. Even though me and this person are not the closest in the world, this person has my love and my appreciation for life. Maybe things do happen for a reason; after this occurence, I can't imagine them not.

Life Lessons

So what do you do when you regret a good time in your life? I've made many mistakes in my days but I thought I had learned what was right and what was wrong. Everyone makes stupid mistakes that they know are wrong even while it's happening, but why is that usually never enough to stop it? In my case, I took the trust of someone I considered family and ruined it. I overstepped a major boundary, and even though I can say it was purely innocent, no malicious intent behind it, I know I deserve whatever actions or feelings I receive in return. I thought that after 18 years of life, and 4 years of the same type of trouble inflicted towards me, I would know what was the wrong thing to do when it came to another. I can only live with my mistakes and hope that I can be a better person for it. It's the worst thing in the world to be hated by someone that you love, especially when it is your fault. All I can say is life takes you in so many directions and the only thing that anyone can do is go with it.

"My heart was too shaky to maintain a stable relationship"

Louis...Lust

I wish I had 4k to spend on this bag...

smh...Pat Buchanan

Now I came across this video on YouTube tonight and was extremely disturbed by the content. No, its not violent or sexual, its political. What's disturbing about it? Just the blatantly racist remarks that spew from Mr. Buchanan's mouth about every 5 seconds. Now don't get me wrong, I totally understand the reservations people have about Sotomayor being nominated for the Supreme Court, but to say she only got the nod because she's a minority is totally ignorant and biased. I do believe in some cases affirmative action is wrong; however, if you look at the distribution of educational funding when it comes to more urban and poor areas compared to more Anglo, prestigious ones there's a huge gap. And even in Sotomayors case, Rachel Maddow brings up a good point in saying that AA didn't give her the grades she got at Princeton or give her the years of experience as an Appellate judge. Pat's egregiously offensive statement that white men were put into places of judgement because they were the ones that died and created this country was disgusting to me. The fact that he would completely ignore the participation of black men in the World Wars and ignore the fact that while the "forefathers" were writing these constitutions "their" country was being built on the backs of slaves and to the expense of the Native peoples made me cringe. For someone like that to have influence in the way our country is handled is very unnerving and makes me want to get involved more in my government's processes. Again, I think everyone has a right to their opinion and which way they chose to express that; but when you're apart of the leadership the most diverse country in the world, these types of ideas can only lead to a hindrance in progression.